Yesterday I had another induction day at the college. We met out tutor (the really lovely lady I met when I went in last week for the open day), met the other students in our tutor groups, had a tour, got lots more info and got our timetables.
Today we all had to go in for a maths and English test to see if we need any help with either. Except I went to see the course co-ordinator instead and told her I’m pulling out (surprise surprise!!!) Since Friday I have been constantly thinking about the course and whether I should do it or not. When I was there yesterday that voice in my head was going “I don’t want to be here”. So, I’m not going this year.
Alfie starts school next year so this is the last year I will have with him at home, and I feel so bad that we’re going to miss out on that. He’s such a lovely little boy to be with and I enjoy taking him out to places. Amos is still only 7 months and at a really lovely stage, rolling, getting his first teeth (two days ago!!!), just being lovely.
I will never ever get this time with my babies back, I can go to college any time I like in the future. So, I’m going to do the course when Amos starts school. Yes, it’s 4 years away but it’s only a short time in the grand scheme of things. I would rather regret not doing the course than regret missing these next few years.
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Aw Lucy, that was such a lovely post. I think you're right, you're still young and you've got loads of time to do these things, but as you say, children grow up very fast and you can't get those years again.
If you were sat there thinking that you didn't want to be there then you've made the right decision. You'll never do your best on a course when your heart isn't in it. As you've said, you'll have plenty of time to do it when your kids are older and can understand that Mummy needs some time to do her college work and when they're at that stage when they don't want you around so much.
You made the right choice for you Lucie. You're still young, you have lots of time to do the things you want. I had a friend who started her nursing degree when she was 55 years old!! She qualified aged 58 and shas been nursing since and is now 64 years old. She says she has no regrets about how long it took but is so pleased she did it in the end.
Best wishes to you.
xx
Now you've got me wondering.
You've made the right decision and a good one. :)
4 years is nothing, and you won't regret ever spending time with your children.
B
i admire your strength here lucy - so many mums rush and end up missing out on a lot of their childrens most needy years, i really think you've made the right choice :)
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